my life 120505

in my life, i've made so many mistakes that i can't even begin to try to count them...some bigger than others, some smaller... one thing i've learned though... people will always be there to judge you because of those mistakes no matter the reason nor the meaning of the mistake...
it's been days since i had a decent sleep... days since i was able to rest comfortably in the once small bed that we used to share...

in the heat of the moment, yet again, i had been judged by a person i believe loves me in all entirety... and for a fleeting moment... everything... ceased to be...

what does it mean to say you ove someone? how do you really show them? it's easy to say you love someone when there's not a sign of trials on the horizon... or when the person you love doesn't hurt you or does not offend you... but can we really back our words when the moment calls for it... like when you're impossibly hurt? can human beings say.. yes i love you still.. here are my arms... come home...

what i've learned? ... it is possible, if even have the faith as small as the grain of salt in the Almighty... we couldn't trust the person we love... let's then trust in the Lord Almighty... he knows best...