Make me whole

i've been spending more time with work
whiling each day in my busy little world
and when i'm all alone
in te solace of my home... i think of you...

Honey I want you to listen
I stayed up all night, so I could get this thing right
And I don't think there's anything missing
Cause a person like you, made it easy to do
I've waited for so long, to sing to you this song

Cause your eyes are the windows to heaven
Your smile could heal a million souls
Your love completes my existence
You're the other half that makes me whole
You're the only other half that makes me whole

I think the angels are your brothers
They told you about me, said you're just what she needs
And I find myself thanking your mother
For giving birth to a saint
My spirit flies when I say your name
If there's one thing that's true
It's that I was born to love you

Cause your eyes are the windows to heaven
Your smile could heal a million souls
Your love completes my existence
You're the other half that makes me whole
You're the only other half that makes me whole

You make my dreams
Come true over and, over again
And I honestly truly believe
You and me are written in the stars
I live my whole life through
To giving thanks to you

Cause your eyes are the windows to heaven
Your smile could heal a million souls
Your love completes my existence
You're the other half that makes me whole
You're the only other half that makes me whole

amel larrieux
~theweed

My life 020506

it's 30 past 6 in the morning... and i just got home from doing some work... man am i killing my self... hooked-up the laptop and play good old piano blues... i can feel the soulful sadness of the melody sink into my system... i've been so busy most of the time that I hadn't felt my heart complaining... you know how it feels to be running so fast and then stoppping all of a sudden and your chest would be pumping tough... i wasn't trying to run away from the reality that inside, im in no condition to be strong... inside, im dying...

poker face is what most people would call it... for me, i'm just trying to live... see i thought i had found my home... my earthen vessel... the other part of the puzzle that would complete my life... the one to be there when all else should fail... but now i failed and there was no one... no one there to hold me and lift me up... so i made the decision to stand on my own... but why am i the only one stranded on the same ground...

My love, It's been a long time since i cried and left us out of my shoe...It's hard leaving you that way when I never wanted to....Self-denial is a game... It,s strange i never would’ve wanted

if i felt there was you.
Because i have learned that love is beyond what human can imagine...the more it clears... the more i have to let you go...
Coz i want a love who would hold me in gladness and i want a love who would

be with me in madness
and it's something that you wouldn't take... didn't want to take...

But now i don’t understand why im feeling so bad now when i know it was my idea. I could’ve just denied myself my pride. Now why am i the only one standing stranded on the same ground?

My love... because i have learned that love is a word gets thrown a little bit too much.

The best excuse to fill the infinite abyss I never have to...

if all else fail would you be there to love me?

When all else fail, would you be brave to see right through me?

But now i don’t understand why im feeling so bad now when i know it was my idea. I could’ve just denied myself my pride. Now why am i the only one standing stranded on the same ground?

if all else fail would you be there to love me?
When all else fail, would you be brave to see right through me?

~the weed

my life 122205

I thought that some time alone, was what we really needed. You siad this time would hurt more than it helps, but I couldnt see it. I thought it was the end of a beautiful story. And so I left the one I love, at home to be alone...

And I Tried and find out this one thing is true that im nothing without you, I know better now and I've had a change of heart.

I'd Rather had bad times with you, then good times with someone else. I'd rather beside you in a storm, then safe and warm by myself... I'd rather have hard times together, than to have it easy apart. I'd rather have the one who holds my heart...

So Im here cause i found this one thing is true, that im nothing without you, I know better now and I've had a change of heart.

I'd Rather had bad times with you, then goodtimes with someone else. I'd rather beside you in a storm, then safe and warm by myself, I'd rather have hard times together, than to have it easy apart. I'd rather have the one who holds my heart, who holds my heart.

I cant blame you if you turn away from me, Like I've done you I can only prove the things I've say with time, please be mine!

Id Rather had bad times with you, then goodtimes with someone else. Id rather beside you in a storm, then safe and warm by myself, Id rather have hard times together, than to have it easy apart. Id rather have the one who holds my heart.

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the greatest time to really tell if you love someone is during the trying times... when there's no reason left to stay and every word is said and done... yet you still find that something to love in the person who's become part of your pain... love regains...

~theweed

my life 121105

lately... it's been a very big struggle... an up-hill climb... nay, more than that...

my sister spoke with me about love and it's seriousness... this was a conversation always worth remembering. i've never been that open and close with my sister, so hearing her talk to me about love and relationships made me think to myself... i am a nobody in love... sure, i've got quite a resume... people put so much faith in my knowledge and abilities to organize and compose corporate thoughts... yet when it comes to organizing my personal life... i'm a juvenile deliquent...

"kuya, loving is not about who's right or wrong... it's not about you being hurt, or her being hurt... it's about looking into your self and asking your heart how to better love the other person.. it's about wanting what's best for the other person not yourself... it's about admitting mistakes and making up... it's about doing something for the person without expecting nothing... it's about being completely open..."

loving is having your happiness in the other person... it's about looking at the other person and knowing to yourself that your happiness lies within her heart...

in my anger and my pride, in my self-serving need to give back the hurt that i had received, i had overlooked where my happiness, my true happiness lies... it's in this person that i am angry towards..

a song once said... "Hey, you know what paradise is? It's a lie, a fantasy we create about people and places as we'd like them to be... But you know what truth is?... it's that woman you fought with this morning, the same one you're going to make love with tonight, that's truth, that's love......"

the truth is... that inspite and despite of... love sould always be there... God should always be there...

i'd looked inside myself... and seen where my happiness is... it's with me all this time, even during the most difficult and troublesome part of life... God had made it so that I have it with me already...

"the person meant for you is the person who'll love you even when there's no more reason to love you... for in your nothingness, the one meant for you will find what's loveable in you..."